Stability

Isa

I have made some radical changes in my life. My whole belief system was turned upside down and yet if I read back in my diaries I am much the same person. Since 1996 when I set my three primary values for myself namely Independence, Growth and Contribution those values remained stable. I might have reflected on them and they might have changes a bit in how I define them but they are my reference points of inner stability. I think the one thing that remained unchanged within me is my spiritual quest. The objective of the quest has changed but the quest itself has always been there. My spirituality has always been at the very core of my being and approach to life.

The rest of my world has had many instabilities. My business and finances had its ups and its downs and yet despite those there was a sense of stability in my business since 2000 when I started it. The instability comes from the fact that there are never any security in being self employed. I try to keep my home in a state of stability and to fence my family from the instability that I often experience in my business. Looking back over the last few years the instability was not so much in my business itself but probably more in my own perception of business.

Something else that is stable is my commitment to my language and culture. I associate myself strongly with my Afrikaner heritage despite its Apartheid history. I do attempt to broaden the political discussion we have to become more inclusive in terms of ideas but I will always stand firmly behind my nation. Even now that they are a minority group, constantly under the grace of a majority government and many of our people have left the country, I remain firm to my country and my people. Many Afrikaner people with their traditional approach to spirituality will frown seriously on my spiritual approach. I am an Afrikaner because I associate myself with the history and culture of the Afrikaner but at the same time I am not the typical picture people have of the Afrikaner people. My cultural stability is based on the firm facts of my genealogy which makes me part of the quest of the Afrikaner by birth. The history is done and fixed we can not change it and therefore it is a point of stability.

My spirituality and my heritage are the two reference points that forms the foundation of stability in my life. The rest of my life is relative. My family, my possessions, my work are all things that are vulnerable and can change in a moments notice. It will be a catastrophic event to be avoided at all costs but we have no certainty that these things are stable. Even our health and sanity of mind can be destroyed in seconds by an accident or sickness. God is eternal and the light, life and love that flows from God into our manifestation is all that is stable. Our understanding of God's mysteries might be evolving and changing but it does not change God. My values determine the degree with which God can express divinity through me. My values might not be eternal but they will always form the points of stability in my world of relativity.

My stability is my heritage, values and spirituality, all else is relative.

Uiki Berkana Fehu Othelo Isa Alu
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